Its whats for breakfast

Well today is my last day of non Christmas activities. We started off today with a very funny between Kiah and myself. I was preparing breakfast when he entered the kitchen. "Mom I Will l only be eating moose,lion,and bear today" "But Kiah what about chicken and piggy and cow?" "MOM I don't like chicken,piggy or cow anymore, I'm ONLY eating moose,lion and bear." "Well Kiah that's going to be hard bc we don't have moose or lion in Arkansas except for in zoo's and you will go to jail if you try to hurt those animals" "Well what about bears, do they live in Arkansas?" "Well we do but your really little and bears are really big and the only way you will kill a bear as a little guy like yourself is if he chokes on you" He stared at me for a min with his forehead wrinkled and then tapped his head in his thinking gesture then responds with "
Ok mom Ill just eat cereal until I'm big enough to kill a bear" I lost it,where in the world does this stuff come from. I could not have started my day any better.

Today I plan on it being a relaxing day. We will be attending a 1st birthday party for a friends little girl and then we will be spending the rest of the day with the Cox's at their house. Then we get up early in the AM and take off to South Arkansas for Christmas at my Grandparents house YAY!! I just really wanted to get the conversation between Kiah and I on blog form so one day I can pull it up and show him how crazy he is lol. Merry Christmas Guys

A date with the cutest guy in town

In the past week I have taken time to have mommy and me time. I took Adelhei on her first shopping trip as just her and mommy. We made a whole day out if it. It was really fun to see her get excited over things she never really cared about. She of course LOVED the shoes dept and hallmark lol. I just can't wait for those days when we can just go get hair and nails done together. It kills me to see how big she is getting ,but I'm also extremely excited about it as well. I just hope by the time prom rolls around she and I are NOTHING like my mother and I were. That was horrible lol. Mom only went to the discount racks and her taste and mine were NOTHING alike. But we served with no injuries.But time will only tell for me and miss Addie Lou.
After I had spent my day with Addie it was time for Kiahs mommy and me time. So yesterday after the whole family spent the day out and about together we took daddy and sister home and got ready for what Kiah calls his mommy date. I wouldn't tell him where we were going. We loaded up, stopped at the store for a special treat (a sprite) lol and headed to Iron Mountain. I still wouldn't tell him what we were doing. We entered the building and begin walking to where my big surprise was. We walked through a wonderland type tunnel with Christmas lights above our heads and he was getting really excited. "Mommy what is this" We turned the corner to be greeted by two big real life nutcrackers and his jaw dropped lol. They escorted us to our seats and I could see the excitement in his eyes. He watched everything around him. The stage,the people everything. Then another surprise, Sydnii,Robert,Petey,and Angel were there. They announce it is starting and he climbs in my lap for a better view. The building goes dark and I feel him tense a little and he leans back and says "Mom its really dark,I cant see anything" I tell him just hang on and then the lights come back on and the opening scene from Imagine Christmas the Crossing Christmas Play begin. He sat so still watching and taking it all in. Well then a few scenes later they had a stomp routine with drummers beating on metal pans and big metal barrels and while they played there was a snowball fight. This kid didn't move except to bob his head to dance or to stretch to see better. Towards the end he got a little restless because the play had slowed down and reached its serious part. Afterwards the whole cast lined the tunnel and he went through telling EVERY cast member Merry Christmas Guys!!! We got outside and he yells "MOM THAT WAS AWESOME, THE BEST DATE EVER" I asked him well Kiah what was your favorite part and he says "Oh the drums for sure, they were so cool and they were throwing things at each other lol. He talked the whole way home about it and ran inside so excited to tell daddy. He brought Josh a program as a gift and sat in his lap and told him everything about our night.
I just wish my kids would always be so excited about spending time with mom, but I know that just as soon as those hormones kick in I can kiss it all goodbye. Oh well I will enjoy it while it last

Goodbye 2009

It is so hard to believe that another year has come and almost went. The years seem to fly by now. I can remember how it seemed to take FOREVER to turn 16, then 18,then 21. After 21 something happened. Time begin to race faster and faster. I could drive now smoke legally buy my own alcohol, what more was there to do or so I thought. Then at that tender age of 23 I became a mom and that is when it really begin racing out of control. Kiah turned 1 after what seemed like weeks after his birth then BAM baby number 2 WHAT! The years are going faster than I can snap pictures lol. 2009 was filled with all sorts to talk about.

We begin the year in California with my wonderful in laws ( not a bad to start the year I must say), Kiah had his first surgery (tubes),there were countless doctor appointments, I began and quit an intense workout lol,friends had babies,town was hit by the worst tornado I have ever seen, Kiah played t-ball,I spent way to much money on a vacuum(Ill pay it off next year!) We got to see both brothers ride at the same rodeo which is pretty rare these days,I turned 26, Tuffed it out through another summer softball league, A few special people were called home, Attended Josh's high school reunion which was interesting but came out of it with a few new friends, Had my very first yard sale,Kiah turned 3, Addie turned one and together we had a fantastic pool party.I received really unnerving news about my boobies,We took Kiah to Magic springs for the 1st time,Kiah started pre school, My brother Cody got married, Josh turned 29, Josh switched doctors which was a very good move, I moved to south Arkansas for a while to care for my grandmother,We were given an amazing gift from the little rock zoo,Survived my first Rochfest LOL, Did a little trick or treating,Had a great Ladies wine tasting. My brother Jermiah got married, I threw a few birthday parties for friends, Got addicted to twilight, suffered though Thanksgiving with a sick baby,Took the kids to the Christmas parade, Attended a baby shower.Watched LOTS of football, WOW that's just a few things.

When I took back on my year like this,it makes me slow down and take it all in. I don't want to look up one day and be 70 years old and not remember what I had done with my life. Who did I meet, who did I lose,what came and went, What did I learn. I try to live one day at a time and cram as much into that one day as I most possibly can. And when its all said and done. I hope that Ill be able to say I DID IT ALL! Here's to one year down and many more to come. Merry Christmas bloggers and Happy New Year!

The Holidays are here

Is it really that time of year again? Thanksgiving is just a few days away and I find my self so excited. All of my life my grandmother has always done the cooking,up until the past few years when we all pitched in because it was just to much on her. And in the past 4 years I have been making dishes and taking them down. When I was single and had my head so far up my butt I couldn't breath I never even thought of cooking. I was good to get to dinner on time. But after I got married and had a family of my own that all changed. For once I took pride in cooking and sharing with the rest of my family. Once year was some Oreo dessert that I totally botched from the normal recipe and couldn't make it that way again if I tried. That's one one my cousin Barrett still ask me to make, another year it was my mother in laws recipe for hash brown casserole, Then there was baked sweet potatoes ( I couldn't tell you if they were good, I don't eat them).

This year as I sat down to rack my brain on just what would I make this year there was only only thing sticking out in my mind PECAN PIE. Mamaw used to have every pie you could think of at Thanksgiving and Christmas. I'm talking no store bought anything. Good old fashion southern cooking the right way. But with her arthritis and just being 80 there is no way she could spend days preparing these things. She does however still make her chocolate pies. She is the South Arkansas Queen of the chocolate pie. And she says she doesn't want to hear my dad complaining there is no chocolate pie, she would lay on the floor to make that pie just to avoid his disappointment lol. So with all of her energy going into her dressing that NO ONE can make like her and her chocolate pie that leaves out my all time favorite. The one item that tells my body and soul that its the holidays and that's pecan pie.

So I told my self ok that's this years project. I have thought of going all out making the crust from scratch and all lol BUUUUT I am known for chucking food across the house that makes me mad and Josh is the one that has to clean it up while I'm in the corner crying lol. So Ill just buy the crust so we know it edible. I will also be preparing my cheese and garlic mashed potatoes with roasted garlic! Sounds like it should be pretty easy and hassle free. The hard part is getting packed and loaded and down there. I cant wait!! And as soon as its over that means I CAN PUT ALL MY CHRISTMAS STUFF UP YAY!!!!!

This year on turkey day also marks my south Polk county sistas' birthday. Happy Birthday Ashley We love you and Im sorry we will be out of town on your day! I hope every one has a spectacular day filled with lots of memories!!!!! Happy Thanksgiving

The boys in blue

So I guess I'm on a blogger bloggy roll this week. But now that my heart rate is back down I would like to share a little bit with you what it is like to grow up in a law enforcement family. When I was a kid we never really thought anything about dad going to work. He was a state trooper no big deal. He had a cool car, a scary gun that by NO means were we to get anywhere near, and some of the coolest buddies known to man kind. There was never once a thought of this could be the last time I see my daddy. Also back in those days there wasn't all these shows about wild police chases and stuff like that, so we had no clue. I wasn't until 1997 when our family was so lucky to be honered with a stalker.

This was the first time in my life that it hit me that wow my dad has a dangerous job. After MANY months of this guys shenanigans he was busted down from our home setting in his truck with a gun. Then the big state law kicked in about dark tint on your windows due to cops being shot on the hwy. By now I'm in my teens and I catching on to alot more of why mom doesn't sleep well when dads working.

A year later we moved to Polk County. Dad was finally off the roads and was the states newest criminal investigator specializing in sex crimes against children. To me this meant no more late night worrying if dad was coming home. Although he has the most god awful job in the world, and sees more in 8 hours of one day than I want to ever see in a lifetime I thought maybe this job was much safer for my father who is now in his 50's.

This all came to a halt last night after getting a phone call from my mom. I knew dad was in Hot Springs working a homicide mainly bc I had just gotten off the phone from him less than an hour before moms' phone call. I answer the phone and she says "If you watch the news dads ok" WHAT! Well when trying to capture a suspect they opened fire. Shooting 2 Garland County Deputies. Even though I had already heard the words your dad is ok I still panic. Where was he, where was the shooter, is he ok lol. So its only like 7:30 and the news doesn't air till 9 YOU MEAN I HAVE TO WAIT. I am on ever site trying to find a pic where maybe I can see my dad holding up a sign reading"JODI GO TO BED I'M OK" Well now we all know that didn't happen right.

After a few hours I finally get that phone call and heard his voice and was somewhat at ease with that. It wasn't until this morning when mom said he made it home somewhere between 3-6 am that I was ok. When we moved here I really thought we wouldn't have these nights anymore. But then thought about all the other man hunts, robberies, murders, this that yada he has worked in the past 10 years and I told my self he wont ever be SAFE until these last 3 years are finally over with. THEN we will only have my baby brother working one of the most infamous drug running interstates in the U.S. Ah that's what only the next 3o something years of my life lol.

To my sister in law. Just know that you are not alone. I guess it just comes with the territory. Welcome to a law enforcement family! I am so proud of both my father and little brother for being so brave and putting their life on the line everyday to serve and protect us

THANK YOU PING.COM for making a ladies life easy!

Could it be can I make one post and it goes to my Twitter,Facebook,Myspace and Blogger all at once!!! IM IN HEAVEN!

Catching up with the Looks

It been a while since I wrote any form of blog. With being on facebook ALL the time there really wasn't need for a blog since people know your every move lol. Since my last blog we have gone through a 5 month lay off at Josh's job, Kiah started preschool, My grandmother fell ill and I went to South Arkansas to take care of her, Josh started a new treatment to help try to heal his kidneys, we survived another county fair and Halloween, And Last but not least all four of the Looks were in my brother Jermiahs' wedding on top of Mt Magazine.
It def has been a busy few months and with the holidays a week around the corner there is no sign of it slowing down. I head back to UAMS in January for my 6 month scan and fingers crossed nothing has grown. I am confident in my Dr's and know that if anything is wrong they will address it immediately.
Josh's treatment just started so there really is no way of knowing if it has done any good. It's a pill form that he takes once a day and his Dr said that he has had 2 patients go into remission on this pill. He does all his lab work in Mena and as long as nothing elevates he won't go back until March.
Kiah is doing amazing in school. In fact he missed today since his dad and I are suffering from a stomach bug and he was not happy over it. He begged all morning to go to school :( He really needed to have that social interaction with other kids and get out from underneath mommy. It was ruff at first but now he loves it and has made lots of new friends.





My grandmother is doing great and luckily they don't need any help at the moment which is awesome. At 80 and 81 they want as much Independence as possible and I don't blame them one bit. They do know that when the time comes they are in good hands. I was nervous about leaving them at first but my mom made me realize that they needed this time that they have, and she was so right. It is hard to see them age. They have always been there for me no matter what I needed. And this is my way of saying thank you for all those years you put into me.





Josh went back to work last week THANK GOD! Lets just pray he stays there and NO MORE LAYOFFS. Motors are doing weekly layoffs every few months but thankfully this past one he actually got to work through it YAY! He goes back to school starting in January. I won't be seeing much of him but it is def something he needs to do for himself and his family.





Halloween, Oh what a awesome story to share. We had planned on attending Boo at the Zoo this year BUT...... With medical bills piling up and no work coming in, it just wasn't in the finances. On facebook one day I saw that at such and such time call this number be caller such and such and you could win 4 tickets PERFECT! So I comment on the post YAY maybe will will win so we can actually make it. Well that started a conversation that would lead to a life long friendship and a day at the Zoo we would never forget. Debbie works in marketing at the zoo and she also is in charge of the zoo's facebook page that I keep close eyes on. She sends me an email that she wanted to personally invite us to the zoo and our tickets were handled. When I got the email of course I cry. I email her back saying how incredible that was and I am so thankful. After a few more emails I share our story with her. I tell her about Josh and his kidneys, the tornado,the lack of work and then on top of that this whole breast cancer scare. An hour or so later I get a phone call from Debbie. She tells me that after reading my story she wanted to do something nice for us. She booked us a room at the Marriott, she personally gave us a tour around the zoo (and we didn't even have to walk!) She took us out for lunch in the cafe that used to be the lions den and we ate in the cages, She then set it up for us to feed the giraffes (which was AMAZING and Kiah still talks about), Then she set us up with our boo at the zoo tickets. It was a day I cant even begin to put into words. I can't thank the Little Rock Zoo for giving us this amazing gift.





And to Jermiah and Jyme beth. They were married this past weekend on Mt Magazine. It was the most perfect weather for an outside wedding. She was stunning and he had a smile plastered from ear to ear. Addie was a bell ringer, Kiah was a barrier, I was a bridesmaid and Josh was an usher. I cant even express how beautiful it was. Even though I had a baby with double ear infections we had a blast!





We all stayed at the lodge and on Sunday the whole family got up and met in the restaurant to have a duel birthday party for my grandparents. We were missing my some of my cousins but thankfully for my grandparents they had all 3 of their kids there. It was a beautiful time with family. Happy 81 and 80 birthdays Papaw and Mamaw







So I guess that pretty much catches you up on us for the past few months lol.

Well yesterday was Adlehei's official birthday. Its hard to believe that a year ago I was laying in a hospital bed recovering from a c-section. She is growing faster each day and its so sad because she was my last :( On Saturday Kiah will turn 3 and that seems almost impossible. 3 REALLY! Where does this time go. Before I know it he will be graduating high school. If 3 years can go by this fast how is it going to feel 15 years from now. I felt like taking you down memory lane of this week 1 and 3 years ago. ENJOY

Jokiah Stone Look was born August 15th 2006
He came into this world 8lbs 4 oz and 20 inches long.


Drugs much lol. I wasn't feeling much at this point.

Adelhei Louise Look

was born August 12th 2008

She weighed 7lbs 15 oz and was 21 inches long

Still in complete shock that I got my baby girl!

The birthday party was a hit! It is still hard to believe that Kiah is three and Addie is one! We had 42 of our closest friends and family there to celebrate the kids birthdays. It was kinda crazy at first but once we got some cake in them we moved them to the pool as fast as possible before we were attacked by an angry mob of kids. Josh's mom sent all the mickey and mini decor, Luke and Dana came and helped decorate,my mom brought the ice cream and my dear Ashley made Addie's smash cake and the kids name cakes. We were there until almost 11 and by the time we got home we were drained. Kiah thanked us and told us it was the best party ever. Making my kids happy is what I set out to do and that was accomplished. The good thing about your kids birthdays being 3 days apart is that you only have to party one time a year lol.

OH MY SWOON GIVE AWAY

So I have this really awesome friend who keeps a really awesome review blog. And you are missing out if you don't get over there and become a follower of this site. Here is the big perk. She is always having giveaways of amazing products. Right now she has a give away for a DVD of the Kids band The Jimmies. To check out more on this band and her website mosey on over to http://ohmyswoon.com DON'T MISS OUT

The joys of motherhood

You know I had always dreamed that one day I would be a mother. You know that fairy tale we all have in our heads LONG before we have children. Sweet tiny infants that never age, that are always clean and smell wonderful. The cutest clothes you have ever seen, play dates with your best friends kids and so on. The night I found out I was pregnant Kiah a warm feeling went over me and all these thoughts once again flooded my heart. I was going to be a mommy. Sure you say out loud yes mom and dad I know its going to be hard but come on I'm 22 I can do this. Well my dear bloggers I was not prepared at 22 for what I would be going through at 26. Today I live in a house with a 3 year old that I'm not sure is human most days. I go through countless "NO I DON'T WANT TO" or "DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO". I have dealt with 100's of dollars of wasted food. I have seen whole rolls of toilet paper disappear in a matter on minutes. I have spent more time in doctors offices in 3 years than I have in my lifetime. Lets not forget teething and the first stomach virus of a family of 4. And remember how we dreamed about fun play dates with our best friends. Well those end up being me and my friends looking at each other with hopeless looks in our eyes asking each other who thought it was a good idea to have kids the same age all while there are 3 year olds throwing Lego's at each other and fighting over who gets the red car.Meanwhile the 1 year olds are to worried that we may leave them in a room where they can't see us. So maybe motherhood wasn't exactly what I thought it would be but there are things that I couldn't even image that have come to pass. I wake up every morning to 2 little souls that depend completely on me. I see the happiness in their faces when they get a new toy or their favorite food. I get to climb in that little half human half monsters bed and read him a bed time book and watch how excited he is to learn. I get to watch them when they sleep and sigh and sigh of relief knowing I managed one more day to keep them safe and sound and for the most part happy.Those are the things I have learned are my favorite things about being a mom. Now instead of dreaming of what my babies will look like. I dream of will kiah be a rock star or a Dr. Will addie choose to follow in my footsteps and raise a family or will she go to college and become a independent successful scholar. And will they look back and know 100% without a doubt that their mother did everything in her power to give them everything their hearts desire.

love love love the banner

Just dropping in to see my new banner that my tech-e made me and I LOVE IT ASH! That pic of Josh and I sums up our relationship don't you think lol. Not much to blog about today other than why its never a good idea to travel to amusement parks with large groups. We made a group trip to Magic Springs yesterday and although we had a lot of fun you end up doing a lot of waiting and this can become a problem if you are married to a man that was born with no patience. All in all the trip was great and our kids had a blast. I failed to take any amazing pics which sucks but maybe next time. Keeping up with a group and kids was enough, I didn't want to worry about a camera. The kids are having their 1st and 3rd birthdays in a few weeks and I'm getting excited. Def not doing a big blow out like I attempted with Kiah's first birthday party but it wont be that shabby. A pool party will make them happy enough. And Ash's cakes will make me happy. So look forward to those memories to show up here in the near future. THANKS again for my banner

Taking on blogger FULL TIME

This is the first step I am taking to rehabilitate myself from myspace. I have been on myspace now for oh god 5 years and it seems like everyone has left for bigger and better things. Some people just refuse to make the transition to facebook or blogger which has forced me to stay in unwanted relationship with myspace. I haven't yet worked up the courage to delete my account but feel that it will eventually come. I love love love to blog and after months of hearing my dear friend tell me to make the switch I am finally doing it. It feels like I am trying to leave a crazy husband but just cant get away lol. So here's to the first step of myspace recovery.

If you are new to my blogs then I might want to post a disclaimer. If you don't know me then you really need one. See I am convinced that I was born without a censor on my brain and mouth. Things pop in my head and come out it may be in the flesh or in the cyber land we all love so much. I am obsessed with my children and I love to talk about them. I love to update my family and friends on the fact that Kiah wiped his own butt or that Addie puked all over me at dinner lol. I also love to use my blog as my therapist and really enjoy seeing all the feedback I get from fellow mothers, wives, and daughters on how the outside sees my situations. So as I let you in on a small glimpse of my life I would like to say I am who I am and I say what I say and if it gets a little much the best thing to do is shake your head and click the back button lol. Hope you have great times learning the ins and outs of the Look family.

SEEKING SELFWORTH

I seem to be a not so active member to several blog sites and as much as I would love to the blogger of all bloggers I just never seem to find a spare minute. A girlfriend of mine stays on me about not reading her blogs and now after being on here I decided to take a peek at my profile and what a sad little site it is. I am become so used to myspace that's its sad. I would love to be able to take the time and become an amazing blogger that you just cant get enough. Maybe in time. But for now Ill just simply give an update for those who somehow float by my page. Its now may and after weeks of tornado clean up t-ball is finally about to kick off. The husband and I are co-coaching with friends of ours. Kiah could not be more excited about 1. daddy being coach and 2 that his best friend and girlfriend are both on his team. Joshua starts his ball season next month as well and I'm just glad not to be pregnant this season. Addie Lou is well on her way to driving it seems. At 9 months old she now has 5 teeth,shes crawling,pulling up and will be walking in the NEAR future. She talks non stop, most of it being baby babble but she manages to get out the words. Momma, da da, bubba, dog, num num (food), night night , bye ,bye,ne-ne and YAY. She fond of clapping and everything seems to excite her. Kiah was such an advanced kid that I had prepared myself that Addie wouldn't do things as fast as him WELL she is doing things alot faster than he did and its just plain scary. I am still staying home with them and had planned on having kiah in pre school this next school year but after thinking hard about it I think he would be bored with 2 years of pre school so we are going to skip this year and wait for next year. I am pretty much ready to get a little part time job near the house just to keep my sanity. After 4 years of laundry, toilets, dishes,diapers,naps,cartoons and fit throwing I have reaching my boiling point. I no longer feel human. I feel a HUGE lack of self worth and that's just not right so getting a little job would really help me feel that Independence that I was so very proud of from the age 17 to 23. I love being home with my kids but they will be happier is mommy is happy. So as I embark on my newest journey I enter it will hope and faith that I accomplish everything I set out to do.