The joys of motherhood

You know I had always dreamed that one day I would be a mother. You know that fairy tale we all have in our heads LONG before we have children. Sweet tiny infants that never age, that are always clean and smell wonderful. The cutest clothes you have ever seen, play dates with your best friends kids and so on. The night I found out I was pregnant Kiah a warm feeling went over me and all these thoughts once again flooded my heart. I was going to be a mommy. Sure you say out loud yes mom and dad I know its going to be hard but come on I'm 22 I can do this. Well my dear bloggers I was not prepared at 22 for what I would be going through at 26. Today I live in a house with a 3 year old that I'm not sure is human most days. I go through countless "NO I DON'T WANT TO" or "DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO". I have dealt with 100's of dollars of wasted food. I have seen whole rolls of toilet paper disappear in a matter on minutes. I have spent more time in doctors offices in 3 years than I have in my lifetime. Lets not forget teething and the first stomach virus of a family of 4. And remember how we dreamed about fun play dates with our best friends. Well those end up being me and my friends looking at each other with hopeless looks in our eyes asking each other who thought it was a good idea to have kids the same age all while there are 3 year olds throwing Lego's at each other and fighting over who gets the red car.Meanwhile the 1 year olds are to worried that we may leave them in a room where they can't see us. So maybe motherhood wasn't exactly what I thought it would be but there are things that I couldn't even image that have come to pass. I wake up every morning to 2 little souls that depend completely on me. I see the happiness in their faces when they get a new toy or their favorite food. I get to climb in that little half human half monsters bed and read him a bed time book and watch how excited he is to learn. I get to watch them when they sleep and sigh and sigh of relief knowing I managed one more day to keep them safe and sound and for the most part happy.Those are the things I have learned are my favorite things about being a mom. Now instead of dreaming of what my babies will look like. I dream of will kiah be a rock star or a Dr. Will addie choose to follow in my footsteps and raise a family or will she go to college and become a independent successful scholar. And will they look back and know 100% without a doubt that their mother did everything in her power to give them everything their hearts desire.