SEEKING SELFWORTH

I seem to be a not so active member to several blog sites and as much as I would love to the blogger of all bloggers I just never seem to find a spare minute. A girlfriend of mine stays on me about not reading her blogs and now after being on here I decided to take a peek at my profile and what a sad little site it is. I am become so used to myspace that's its sad. I would love to be able to take the time and become an amazing blogger that you just cant get enough. Maybe in time. But for now Ill just simply give an update for those who somehow float by my page. Its now may and after weeks of tornado clean up t-ball is finally about to kick off. The husband and I are co-coaching with friends of ours. Kiah could not be more excited about 1. daddy being coach and 2 that his best friend and girlfriend are both on his team. Joshua starts his ball season next month as well and I'm just glad not to be pregnant this season. Addie Lou is well on her way to driving it seems. At 9 months old she now has 5 teeth,shes crawling,pulling up and will be walking in the NEAR future. She talks non stop, most of it being baby babble but she manages to get out the words. Momma, da da, bubba, dog, num num (food), night night , bye ,bye,ne-ne and YAY. She fond of clapping and everything seems to excite her. Kiah was such an advanced kid that I had prepared myself that Addie wouldn't do things as fast as him WELL she is doing things alot faster than he did and its just plain scary. I am still staying home with them and had planned on having kiah in pre school this next school year but after thinking hard about it I think he would be bored with 2 years of pre school so we are going to skip this year and wait for next year. I am pretty much ready to get a little part time job near the house just to keep my sanity. After 4 years of laundry, toilets, dishes,diapers,naps,cartoons and fit throwing I have reaching my boiling point. I no longer feel human. I feel a HUGE lack of self worth and that's just not right so getting a little job would really help me feel that Independence that I was so very proud of from the age 17 to 23. I love being home with my kids but they will be happier is mommy is happy. So as I embark on my newest journey I enter it will hope and faith that I accomplish everything I set out to do.